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Asking Why

1/28/2018

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This season of deliverance like I've never experienced (obvi) and didn't even know was needed or possible has been a serious roller coaster ride. Up and down and all around. That was the title of my first blog - The Roller Coaster: Up and Down and All Around (on Tumblr). 

Perhaps I was prophesying and didn't realize it 'cause I'm back on this roller coaster again, and this week I heard myself asking the following:
  • Why don't I have a normal life like so many other people?
  • Why couldn't I have married young and had kids that are about to graduate and head to college?
  • Why didn't I just get one job after college and prepare to work there for 50 years and then retire?
  • Why aren't me and my husband about to sell our starter home and upgrade or remodel it?
  • Why do I have all this dysfunction in my life?
  • Why do I have so many active curses operating in my life?
  • Why is everything in my life so different than the norm?
  • Why do I need more; why couldn't I stop and settle into life after some of the past deliverance I've received?
Some of these questions I can answer, right? ... because I know my family of origin. But some of the others will require a bit of time with Holy Spirit to get more information. 

Have you ever asked any of these questions about your life or is everything laid out and working out normally for you? 

I see these 'normal' people who've married young and who are just going about life and I wonder what they do when crisis hits. I've had/have all these problems, so I have strategies in my toolbox for crisis situations. Do they? Or do they just have such normal lives that crises don't happen to them? And I also wonder are they not seeking personal growth? A good portion of my problems are the result of me wanting to grow professionally, spiritually and personally.

​Why can't I just settle into a normal life and not need more? Any insights?


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First Fruits Flight 2018

1/7/2018

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Happy & Blessed 2018, dear ones!
I took my first fruit flight and all went well. I dedicated my travels for this year to The King and Kingdom, blessed the Bombardier Q400 I was on and rejoiced at ways The Lord showed up.

First of all, the flight was overbooked the night before which is never good for someone, and that someone is sometimes me and was me December 30th - two flights in a row. I headed to the airport at 5:15a anyway loosing angels to go before me and asking The Father to make a way where there seemed to be no way. But I also told him, "Lord, if you don't want to, that's fine. I have to stop expecting You to deliver me out of everything I get into and giving me everything I want."

That's big growth, bt dubbs. I've been sharing how He's been maturing me here and there - some on the Prophecy blog and a bit on Zari Banks, mostly with those I'm mentoring and/or praying with because I've invited them along on the journey to deep deliverance.

Got to the airport, on time ... not too early, not too late ... time to go to the Alaska Lounge for a light breakfast and then down to the gate. Got on flight 2206, seat 7E, door 7. I thanked The Lord as I walked to the plane and smiled at my seat and door - 77. Holy Spirit's been requesting my attention using 77 since late October.

As often happens when flying between the two cities I reside in, the pilot announced there'd be turbulence because of the weather - clouds, rain and wind. As I've grown accustomed to when flying, I put on anointing oil, covered the plane, crew and passengers with The Blood of Yeshua, loosed The Hosts of Heaven to go before us and clear a pathway through the sky for a safe and event-free flight and put on my headphones to rest for 30 minutes.

God has graced me with authority and angels over the air when I'm flying. Not sure why He has, but I appreciate it because I used to be a nervousy flyer. Years ago I was terrified at takeoff, landing and at any bump or noise in between. I got delivered from unforgiveness in 2012 and the fear of flying, snakes and (most) spiders - still don't like to be startled - was defeated. Perhaps He did so because He's the one who asked me to travel. Maybe because He knows my history and knew that I started traveling regularly in 2017 begrudgingly. I have come to love traveling, but the grace, authority and angels are still available to me and I'm thankful to Him for that favor.

In my past immaturity, I thought I would be able take this anointing for safe flying and release it to you to receive by faith. I know now that's not always how God works things for us. He hasn't given me any instruction to release this grace to anyone else, and as I said above I don't know what's required to qualify for it. Maybe I'll ask Him sometime this year, and let you know what I learn - got a ton going on right now so don't have a time frame. It's a grace that He released at His volition, which I never requested, expected or knew was a possibility. What I do know about Yahweh is that you can ask Him for anything. You may not get it, but you can sure ask without fear or hesitation ... and ask in faith. 



What I can do is bless you. 


I bless you and your year 2018. I bless your travels and cities. I pray you hunger for deep deliverance and grow in intimacy with The Godhead. I declare this all by faith in Yeshua and seal it by Holy Spirit.
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