Have you ever stopped to consider all of the circumstances God orchestrates so that we get where and what we need?
I've been really thinking about this lately because of how God's working out some things in my life. Patti and I have actually been texting these things back and forth over the past couple weeks. You know ... rehearsing testimonies.
Let me just tell you upfront that I overthink. That being stated, if you get bored and wanna ditch this post at any time, you're welcome to do so. I won't take it personally. However, I suspect those who read it through will begin to pay more attention to how God unfolds their timelines going forward. Let's get started.
My sweetheart called me in August - 17 months and five days after we broke up and four years to the day of from the first time he called me. I know enough about God to know neither of those things is a coincidence. First, the numbers matter: 17 is the number of victory, five represents grace and four represents things established by God.
Him calling me was a victory (17); actually a reward for learning to stop throwing temper tantrums when I don't get my way. God doesn't like the tantrums, he doesn't like the tantrums and they weren't/aren't helping me get what I want anyway. They just made me look cray.
And I definitely got a major dose of God's Grace (5) showered on me through his forgiveness because initially he didn't want to speak to me at all after I acted a fool last March. Side note: March is one of three months God ordained to be exceedingly blessed in my life each year, and the enemy knew this and worked overtime to curse that month. They've been winning the March battle. No more, though, I cleansed and sanctified it so March 2019 will be the start of God's big blessings coming through for me as they should. I'm excited.
And then the four as established by God. We courted three years (two years, 7 months to be exact), broke up for the 17 months, five days - and he came back from the dead as Patti Cake says - four years to the day. That was God confirming that He was all over this union because the whole time we were broken up I prayed God would completely wipe him from my mind, soul and spirit memories. Didn't happen, bt dubbs, which I couldn't understand 'cause God has removed men before lickety-split with no questions asked. I needed to know God was in it because the enemy came immediately to steal my joy of Sweetheart's return by whispering the lie that he only came back to hurt me in retaliation.
Two days before he called me was the first major test I passed without throwing a temper tantrum when I normally would have. Matter of fact, I threw a tantrum March 5, 2018 because I didn't get my way and we broke up March 5, 2017 because of my tantrum when I wasn't getting my way. Shame. It's embarrassing to have to write this, y'all. That day was cursed. I'm not sure if I allowed the curse to come in 2017 or if it existed already. March has been historically bad for me, as I already shared, because God had planned to bless me that month, but the enemy wasn't allowing it. That's over now thanks to my cleansing of time. I am supes ready for March 2019 ... I even have some days in the month already highlighted because God said to expect gifts from Him. Also, there's a post on this page somewhere about cleansing March 5 that I tried to find and couldn't. Sorry. You can look for it if you're interested or get my upcoming book, Sanctifying Time.
One day before he called, Patti challenged me to bless him instead of asking God to remove him because clearly God was NOT going to wipe my memory of him. I have a teaching on The Law of Blessing that I need to get out. It's powerful. The teaching is what Patti was referencing. She said to me I should bless him and see what happens because of all the good results I'd been getting from using the principles. I did it and got positive and miraculous results AGAIN.
Now to my point - thinking over all the man (and by man I mean angel) hours and power God had to enlist to get this relationship back on track. I was praying, fasting and getting delivered. I have no idea what Sweetheart was doing besides working *rolling my eyes.* God had to send an angel to nudge him to call me. And I wonder how many nudges the angel had to nudge before he finally picked up the phone. I can imagine God instructing the angel(s) assigned, "He has to call her on August _. Direct him." God doesn't have to repeat Himself to the angels or add a statement of importance. If they're being sent, the expectation is fulfillment.
There was an angel assigned to Patti so she could deliver wisdom to me. There were angels, and possibly some demons, assigned to cause me problems that provided opportunities for temper tantrums which I had to overcome.
And even before all of these August 2018 events God had to move me to Seattle last year by having me apply for a part-time job while in a depressed stupor. I didn't even remember applying for the job, didn't understand the duties, can't tell you where I found it or how I got hired other than God's supernatural maneuvering. Oh, I do know Sweetheart was praying that I'd move there. He asked me for three years, and I kept saying no. Didn't realize God was in it; and I was also being stubborn and wanting my way. And didn't realize that I couldn't marry him if I didn't move. As intelligent as I am, sometimes I'm just dumb. Thank God He helps me.
God also had me enroll in a year's deliverance ministry training that led to my timeline getting healed and me learning to heal land. Two of four sessions were in Seattle, too. That's no coincidence. Think about all this. And, of course, this is only a snapshot of all that's happened in the last four years. God and heaven were busy getting us to this point in time and this level of spiritual maturity. Especially with me on the loose with free will. Good grief. God probably has to assign two or three angels to me when He'd usually only assign one.
So many things. Little things that are leading up to something huge. Exciting. God is totally invested in me and my destiny and it's awesome to be a part of. I do wish I didn't mess so many things up, but I'm thankful for heaven's resources and role in my future. There's a lot of good in store or God wouldn't go through so much to work it out. That's encouraging. Let's praise Him:
I praise You for all the supernatural maneuvering that's brought me to this place on my timeline, Elohim. Thank You for investing in me and writing me into Your Kingdom plans. I bless You for all of the angels assigned to help me, and the demons I'm forced to face off and exercise authority over. I praise You for maturing me and for redeeming everything I mess up. I love You, Lord. Amen.
I bless you in Yeshua's Name and pray you're walking out your Original Design.
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Most women aren't taught how to speak properly to men. Therefore, because we don't say what we really mean we don't receive what we really want from them. I teach women how to talk to men and their lives, marriages and dating relationships change for the better.
Shamine Marie's book is coming out soon, y'all, and I'm supes excited for it!!! She's in the editing stages right now, but you can get updates on her site and interact with her on Facebook and Twitter. You can also listen to some of her testimony in my Testimony Tuesday archives.
Shamine has been a tremendous blessing in my life, and I'm honoring her contribution to my ministry and career by offering up Ztv to her disposal as she moves into the destiny Dad has for her. In my mind I picture she and I as Danny Devito (me) and Arnold Schwarzenegger (Shamine) in the movie Twins (1988). It's mostly the height difference I've imagined ... but anyhoo, we're gonna cut up when we get together at the conference in April. Please read the blurb for her book below and connect with her 'cause she's blowin' up *in my Martin Payne "what up, what up, what's up?" voice*.
In her upcoming book, Shamine talks candidly about how the seeds of perverseness were planted in her heart as a child and how as a result, she made unhealthy choices and decisions. She went from one relationship to another in search of a thing called “love” until the emotional and physical pain she suffered in each became too great to bear. Shamine takes us on a journey that leads to a road of deliverance, healing, restoration and ultimately to the greatest Love of all. Along with her personal experiences, Shamine shares the truth of God’s Word in hopes that other women will be healed, encouraged and set free. Shamine believes that her story will minister to the hearts of those who read her book and as result give God ALL the glory!
Releasing Spring 2015.
Copyright © 2015 Shamine Marie McDowell
It's easy to be celibate when there's no man around. But when he arrives - and he's one of Dad's Men of Excellence - so does temptation. Pray for me.